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Monday, February 19, 2018

 Hello friends, I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! Sorry this post is going up so late today, this was very tough for me to write. Going into last week I knew it was going to be a weekend packed with emotions. My family from out of state, which I haven’t seen in forever, was coming into town for my very last game I would be cheering at. I knew it was going to be emotional because something I have known and been doing for 15+ years was quickly coming to an end. Little did I know, that along with the end of this era, I would also be saying goodbye to my best friend of 13+ years.

Before I write any further, I do not want you thinking that I am only writing about myself, or that I am telling you how to cope with a loss. Because that is not what I am doing here. I just want you to know my story of loss and how I coped with it so that you know that you are most definitely not alone in this time of need. Everyone copes with a loss in their own different way, so don’t be ashamed to do what you need to. Losing anything can be one of the hardest things a human has to go through in their lifetime. You get so accustom to having that person, animal, or even just an object being there, that when it’s not there, you haven’t a clue on how to even function.

I had my little pup Henry since my parents got divorced when I was only in the third grade. My grandma brought him home, and instantly he filled every crack, big or little, in my heart with so much love. From the beginning we were best friends, and you’re probably like “you can’t be that close of friends, he is just a dog.” Well you’re wrong, he was more than just a dog. Henry fulfilled and surpassed the meaning of “a dog is a man’s best friend.” I have never met an animal who had such an outgoing, friendly, passionate, and loving personality like he did… hell I’ve never even met a human with the personality he did. We did everything together, and I’m not kidding by that. If I were going, Henry was going. Henry was most definitely my roller coaster buddy, he rode every bump, hill, or turn there has been in my life so far. For that, I want to send a special thank you to him up in heaven for always having my back.

Fast forward to last week, this year Henry was going on year 14, which is huge for a dog whose life expectancy was only 8-9 years. I knew his time was coming, he was turning into a grumpy old man lol, but I thought I’d have a little bit longer with my bubs. My mom arrived home on Thursday, and that’s when Henry got bad. His stubborn little butt, would never do anything drastic unless my grandma, mom, and I were there. So, he knew mom was coming home, and I think he wanted to make sure we were all there to say goodbye. Friday morning, Henry sadly crossed the rainbow bridge to be with his other little buddies we’ve lost along the way.

This has honestly been the hardest thing I have had to do. Henry had always been there to help me, and it broke my heart that I was not able to do for him, what he has done for me. But, my mind is slightly at ease knowing he is no longer in pain or suffering and that he is going to make some little girl happier than ever in his next life.
It is not going to be easy to heal from this, but with time I’ll be okay. I am blessed I was able to have had Henry for so many years. He was a great dog, an awesome family member, and an even more amazing friend. I’m pretty freaking lucky to have someone so awesome watching over me now! Like I have said before,

“You gotta take the good with the bad, smile when you’re sad, love what you got, and remember what you have”

Henry may be gone, but I am so blessed to have had the time I did with him. Might take me a while to cope with this loss, but that’s okay because changes like this are never easy.

So, to Henry: Nana, Mom, me, and every other person you have impacted in your life, love you tremendously and will miss you dearly. We hope heaven has all the goodies and comfy beds you can dream of. Sleep tightly handsome man. I am missing you more than you’ll ever know!

XO- Alexis

*If you are someone going through a loss and need someone to talk to, please do not hesitate to reach out, I don’t want you feeling alone!

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