Finding your burst of Courage

Sunday, August 19, 2018

Happy Sunday everyone, I hope you all have had a wonderful weekend! It’s been
quite a while since I have posted, and I am totally guilty of dropping a few of the goals I set for myself in my last post. BUT, even though I slipped up on a few of mygoals, I followed a different path. My entire life I’ve always (and I mean always) been someone who plans every aspect of my life. My friends always joke with me because I normally have like three months ahead planned out and they would have to get themselves on my schedule ahead of time if they wanted to see me. I am not the type of person to live on a whim and I never have the courage to just go with the flow on things. Surprisingly, I have the worst anxiety and when I don’t know what’s happening next, I tend to freak… hence the reason I plan every aspect of my life out. Over the last month I have definitely learned more than I ever thought I could about something that scared me so much.

Shortly after I wrote my last post about my goals, I went on vacation
that I had been planning with my cousin for months(shocker). The night we were leaving for our trip, I kid you not like two hours prior to our departure time, our original plans had completely changed. If you know me, even if you don’t, I’m sure you can imagine how scrambled I probably was that plans were changing that last minute. But, I took a leap of courage and decided the heck with it, I’m just gonna go with whatever happens. I know there isn’t a lot of people out there who are the type of person to just take a leap of courage and go wherever the wind takes us. But, after this vacation I have definitely learned a thing or two about getting the courage to live a free-spirited life. If you would have asked me a month ago what my plans were, I could have told you what my days would look like from waking up to going to bed for the next three months. After vacation, my days varied on what I wanted to do based off of how I was feeling that morning.
 Don’t get me wrong, I have definitely had my moments where I just jumped, like when I applied for the DCP or took a spur of the moment trip to visit someone I hardly knew. Yes, those things took a leap of courage, but they were things that I felt fit perfectly into my life at that time, so they didn’t scare me. And, surprisingly those two leaps of courage I took have changed my life immensely… Now living on a whim, that is something that scares the living hell out of me. Since the beginning of the year, I have been looking for the right path to go down but every path I’ve looked at, I never had the courage to actually go down. I thought that maybe if I kept my life structured that I would eventually figure out what path I was
 meant to go down. Well, I was quickly proved wrong when I decided to take this leap of courage with vacation. Within a matter of seven short days I was shown how to toss the planner to the side and just go with whatever was right in front of me.
We wake up every day with a new opportunity sitting in front of us. Many of us look over that opportunity because we have gotten ourselves into such a routine we do not like to venture far from what we know. While many of us over look this opportunity, there are a handful of people who take this opportunity and run with it. It takes a special kind of courage to wake up every morning not knowing what they day will bring and to just go with the first thing that presents itself. But, once you’ve learned how to find this type of courage, you’ll wonder how you planned every second of your life.
Life is short and when we plan every day we allow ourselves to just let the days pass by one after another and before we know it, yet another year has passed. After taking this vacation I have realized that living a structured life is most definitely not the answer to the path I need to be taking. Finding the courage to live on a whim has been life changing for me and has already positively impacted my life in so many ways. As I prepare for my next adventure starting here in a few weeks I keep reminding myself of a saying Walt Disney stated himself, “All our dreams can come true if we have the Courage to pursue them.” Many of us have dreams and goals we would love to accomplish but do not have the courage to pursue them. A month ago, I would have considered myself to be someone who was too scared to pursue my goals. But with a little inspiration, encouragement, and realization I gained on my vacation, I have a new-found courage to fully follow my dreams and live the life I’ve been looking for.
Don’t get me wrong, it took more than one person to push me, more than one sign to inspire me, and more than one realization to encourage me. I know finding this courage is not easy, but I hope that I can be that one person to push you, or that one sign to inspire, or maybe even that realization you need to encourage you. Because I know how badly I wanted it and I can only imagine how badly you want that goal or dream. I hope that you take this post as a sign and you look up from your planner because sometimes all the answers you need are right there in front of you, you just need to face them head on. Sometimes the smallest things, like taking a vacation can change your life. To the people who helped me find this courage on vacation, I can’t thank you enough for changing my life.

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